Moving On.

I’m always looking back, thinking if I made the right decisions in the past. It’s not exactly the best thing to do but at times I really can’t help it. I do ponder quite often about the decision I made last year end, because it was an extremely tough call to make. I’ve felt regrets, disappointment and sometimes, anger when I go back to ‘that’ time when it happened, when my life changed.

It could be dramatic to say so, but believe me, if I didn’t make that call, I wouldn’t be the same person I am today. I found it extremely hard to move on because there were just too many memories. Everything I did would somehow remind me of the past. I also realised that I try to push away or rather, I avoid going back to those times. Truth is, that only made it harder to move on.

I recall A and J telling me that I had to come to terms with my situation, in other words, accept that what happened has already happened. There were good memories that I should treasure and the not-so-good ones.. well, just let it go. Move on.

But when they told me that, I really couldn’t see it through their perspective. I was probably clouded and confused about my emotions. Half a year later, today, I realised that the only way to move on was to accept it. And it’s true; I do feel less burdened by the past. 

June.

I’ve somewhat imagined my post-exam holiday to be one that would involve me bumming around the house and em, doing just that. But since the holidays started, I haven’t been able to do just that. Not that I’m complaining anyway, because I have an awesome team to work with. I don’t know what I’ll do without them sometimes, when organizing an event especially.

Despite the busy ‘working’ schedule, I’ve managed to squeeze in a shoot with Alex Leong. Actually I shot with him before, I had famously called that previous shoot a headless one because you couldn’t see my face in the pictures. But then again, each photographer have different styles. This time around, I’d rather him not shoot my face because I had a mere four hours of sleep the day before. My eye-bags were freaking obvious. I haven’t seen the shots, but he did show me one shot that looked pretty good. Looking forward to that. Will post it up once I get my hands on them.

So, June will be ending soon and I’m hoping to make the most out of July since it’ll be the last month before I head off to work. Time to catch up with my friends, shoot pictures and just living now.

London The Summer Musical.

You may have heard of the latest musical in town, none other than London, The Summer Musical. :) I’ve been invited to the Gala Premiere of it back then in May, but I’ve only been able to blog about now due to my examinations.

These are the tickets, and I loved the design of them. On the back of these tickets, they actually resembled boarding passes. Like those you’ll get when you board an airplane. Which is a nice touch, because this time the musical is about three air stewardesses who stopped performing and decided to travel the world instead.

This is the opening act, I love the theme song! Very catchy tune. :)

I’m not going to elaborate more about the storyline of the musical but you can expect some love story and tonnes of songs being performed on stage. I’ve been to the Magical Musicals and Aladdin as well, so if you did as well, then this musical is somewhat a cross in between the two. Why’d I say so? Simply because the concept was similar to the Magical Musicals with three girls and three boys being paired up, singing and such. Aladdin because I love the elaborate costumes there; there was some in the London, Summer Musical towards the end only though.

Last but not least, a picture of myself and the sister! I have a pretty long day in college before heading to the Surf Beach for this. Haha, please ignore the tired look. :)

When things couldn’t get worse.

I’ve been MIA for some time because I’m taking the final papers of my semester and I’ve said that I’ll only be back on June 13. But after all that happened today, I had to pour my heart out somewhere. So where else if not, my blog?

I got so depressed after the exams, so depressed that if I didn’t talk to anyone about it I knew I would lose my mind. So, I called Jason up and after that, I did feel so much better. And thank you Alex too, for listening.

I’m sure you’re wondering what got me so depressed, which surprisingly, wasn’t because of the paper I sat for. It was because of what I did in the examination hall, despite the fact that I had unconsciously done so. :( I have my own stupidity to blame for that.

And because I was so shocked after realising how stupid I was, I actually left my pencil case in the examination hall. The case had my credit card and my IC in it. :s Best thing was I didn’t realised that I left it until my friends called me. That is how clueless I can be. (And thank you Danny for taking the case back for me!)

And all these stuff, just got me so bloody depressed. It may seem like pretty small issue but trust me, if you’re in my shoes, you’ll know how it feels.

But, on the bright side, I just got my pencil case back from my lovely awesome fantastic friends who delivered it to me! Thank you Eugene, Reuben and Serene! I’m forever indebted, until I treat you all to a meal. Haha. :P

With all this things happening, I’m really really thankful for my friends. Also, I’m very lucky to have friends like you all. <3

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It helped that the radio played the right song today; Andy Grammar’s Keep Your Head Up.

But you gotta keep your head up, oh,

And you can let your hair down, eh.

You gotta keep your head up, oh,

And you can let your hair down, eh.

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Photo: Hope in Faith

 

Note: I am going through my preparation for my final two papers, hence I’ll be taking a short break from blogging! Will be back from June 13 onwards!

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When life gets you down, you can lose everything but you cannot lose hope. And faith, that things will be alright.